Jizdani Designer Bags!

I cannot even tell you how gorgeous these handmade handbags are. My friend is doing a giveaway of this beautiful Handmade Handbag.Go to this link to see what a great bag this is and enter to win. I hope you don't win, because I want this bag, but I guess all is fair in love and war.
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This is the link to her Etsy Shop. You can check out her other bags too. http://www.jizdanidesignerbags.etsy.com/

The Proposal!

Her She is!

Can you see the heart? It is one of my many favorite things about this ring. I also love the thickness of the gold, and the thick prongs, I will never lose my diamond.
Okay so it was not actually a proposal, but it was close. 18 months ago I lost my wedding ring, for those of you who have one, you can imagine how sad it was to lose it. IT wasn't the monetary issue for me, it was the sentimental aspect of it, and the fact that I absolutely loved, loved, loved my ring. We had had it made just for me. It was so sad, and my dear husband has not let me forget that I lost it and it must not have meant much to me if I lost it so easily. As you can imagine this really ticked me off, because it was actually the opposite and it made me sick that it was gone.
Now that you know what happened 18 months ago we can move on. As many of you know from reading my blog last week it was a rough week. It also happened to be Ethan & Gauge's birthdays. We celebrated with my family in Bear Lake over Labor Day weekend and Gauge's was on Sunday of that weekend so we thought that was good enough. Months ago we had asked my mom to watch our kiddos and I had this great and I mean great date planned for Ethan's birthday. Well after everything the last couple weeks we decided to have Danielle & Alan watch them and go out to Rodizio's on Friday instead. Then after all the emotions all I wanted to do was curl up in my pj's and watch a movie. Ethan would not drop going out to dinner, and he was driving me nuts about it. I told him if he got a babysitter we could go not thinking that anyone was going to be available with an hour notice. Well our sweet niece Loni was available and Ethan went and picked her up and took me to my favorite restaurant Macaroni Grill, after that he drove to Ensign Peak and I was wearing heals and thought he is crazy if he thinks I am hiking in these. I wasn't going to say anything, because it was really sweet that he planned this out of the ordinary date for me, for his birthday. So he turned on the song "Just the Way You Are", by Bruno Mars and asked me to dance (which is something he used to ask me when we were dating). Then at a predetermined part he pulled out MY RING!! Which he had remade for me by the same jeweler that we thought had gone out of business. I actually thought that he had found my ring when I first saw it, because it was the same.
It was so sweet and thoughtful and the most thoughful part was the timing of everything. Thank you Ethan you are the best at everything you do and are, and I love you just the way you are too! XOXOXOOOOOOOOOOX Thanks for being mine and I look forward to the rest of eternity with you. Happy Birthday to ME! I told Ethan that I really don't mind if for his birthday every year he gets to buy me a gift. Not too bad eh!

Where to Begin!

It's not really that late tonight, but I can't sleep. My mind is racing with thoughts of how do we do this, what can we help with, and what will the outcome be? A week ago last Tuesday we found out that my mom has Uteran Cancer. She has been sick in and out of the hospital, and doctors appointments for the last 4 months. They thought that it was a thousand things but none of the medicine helped with her pain. They finally did a biopsy during one of her surgeries and found CANCER. They did a complete hysterectomy on Tuesday and took out 20 lymphnodes. They biopsied those and found out that 5 of them are cancerous. Because she got diagnosed with uteran cancer first, and then it was found in her lymphnodes it means that she has both kinds. in a month after she is healed and strong enough they will start Chemo and Radiation. My poor sweet mom, doesn't deserve this. She came home yesterday and then had to go right back up there really early today. She was throwing up and her heart was racing like crazy and wouldn't slow down. So she is now in the Cardiac ICU. They found a spot on her lung, her blood enzymes are high and one of her heart valves is enlarged. Unfortunately the news just keeps getting worse and worse.
To top all of this garbage with my mom, my grandma that we live with/take care of fell on Tuesday night and cut her head open. I had to take her to the E.R. and they had to put staples in her head. She came home that night not stable on her feet anymore and so we had to take stations at the end of her bed all night long. We have decided that we can not give her the 24 hour care that she needs anymore. IT is truly breaking my heart at the prospect that tomorrow we will take her to an Assisted living home and leave her there alone. I can't even fathom how any of us are going to walk away, knowing that with grandma's Alzheimers she will be so lost and so much more confused. I know that this post probably sounds pretty negative, and I don't mean to be a downer, but I need to write it to get it out of my head. Whenever I try to voice this it still doesn't feel any better, I don't know what to say.
I guess I am just mad that you always just feel like your mom will always be there. Then when there are major issues with them that you can't help and have no control over you feel like you have wasted so much time. I feel like I have totally under-appreciated my mom. She is such a wonderful example and teacher of so many things. She is kind and patient, and serves everyone around her. She has such a calm temperament, and just lets things go instead of picking a fight with people, because she would rather not upset people. She is wise and she has such a great testimony, and knowledge of the scriptures. I just hope that we get to have her here for a lot longer. We still need you mom. I love you more than words can say. XOXOXOXOXOXOXO

P.S. Thank you so much for all of the kind and caring people who have watched my kids, brought us dinner, prayed for my mom, called to check on me, cried with me, and understood that I just needed a listening ear and shoulder to cry on. And of course Red Mango, thanks Amanda. I have never felt so loved and blessed to live in our ward and have the friends that I have. I love you guys you are the best!

The Lion King!!

SO we got to go see the Lion King last night at Capitol Theatre with my family. It was absolutely amazing. You always hear how great the costumes are, but until you see them for yourself you have no idea how truly incredible they are. We went out to eat at the Olive Garden before which of course is a tradition for my family whenever we go see something at Capitol Theatre. Thank you Mom and Dad for an amazing night and for always making sure that our lives were balanced with sports, music, family, service, culture and laughing. You are such wonderful parents and I am so happy that you are mine. I Love You!!

Cutest Headbands Ever!!

A friend of mine from Jr. High and High School has just barely started selling these adorable headbands on Etsy. You should go check out her blog to see some pics, and if you love them, then buy a few. Good luck Tonii!


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